Monday, 9 March 2009

Waiting

I f#@kin don't like this.

My first embie didn't survive.

My second embie had 100% cell rehydration (for those in the know about frozen embryos). If you are not in the know, well, it's good.

They put it back.

I have chest pains from panic. But I am not too worried, I googled and after reassuring myself that I was not about to die of either a broken heart or heart attack, I resigned myself to the fact that anxiety is going to be a part of this ride.

The momentum for life, both scientifically and spiritually, has to come from this little embie. I can provide the best environment possible, but as with all things to do with your kids, they ultimately need to do it for themselves.

Go embie. Have a will for life.


17 comments:

Mrs. Spit said...

I'm sorry. Hoping for the other embie right along with you.

Just Caz said...

Thinking of you and your embie.

S said...

one PGD'd embryo with 100% rehydration has a good, good chance at being a live birth.

(just googled 'embryo rehydration' and stumbed onto a site that says that God says that IVF is wrong. what. the. f#ck. I think I'll agree - it sounds good like RE-surrection and better than DEhydration haha.)

I've always had bad stress during the PGD cycles. I don't think anyone normal could NOT have stress during any IVF cycle, much less a PGD one, so I think you're safe and the embie is also safe.

When is your beta?

God or mother nature or whoever - please let this embie stick in for the long haul and become Maya's live lil brother or sister.

f#cking hope this works for you mate. xx

Bluebird said...

Fingers crossed for you and your embie. Will be thinking of you -

Michele said...

I am praying for your baby right now. Come on little embryo! Grow, grow, grow!!!

Lori said...

Bury, bury! Grow, grow!

Holding you in my thoughts, B.

mlg- believe-n-miracles said...

Go Lil' Embie, stick little one!

mrsmuelly said...

Sticky, sticky, sticky...be a pain in your mommy's uterus!!!

Rachel said...

Go embie.

Kami said...

Come on magic emby! Grow, grow, grow!

luna said...

hoping for you, B! grow grow grow!

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MrsSpock said...

Stay little one! Grow!

niobe said...

Waiting with you...

Coming2Terms said...

I was getting good vibes about you -- how's that for a good reason to come see how things are developing?!
Sending you and your embie oxoxoxox.

S said...

Just checkin in...how are you feeling? Good, bad? Unsure? Thinking of you.

xx

tonya said...

I am hoping that this is one headstrong embryo! Hoping you get the best news possible in the next couple of weeks.