Tuesday, 23 February 2010

You see

The pee stick did have two lines on Friday, and again on Saturday. Which is what made me think that just maybe I could give up IF for lent. The "yeah right" was you know, being superstitious as we all are, me pretending that it wouldn't happen so that it would.

I thought it would.

I really did.

But on Monday you couldn't see the second line, only a shadow where the line might be if there was going to be one. And today my beta was a big fat 4.

Why does my body not hold on to my babies?
Why don't they stick?


35 comments:

Panamahat said...

Oh B, what a total bummer. I am so terribly sorry. Unfortunately I am not one for answers on why babies don't stick, having yet to experience a sticker myself. But I do know about fading lines and pissy small betas and I know how much they suck.

And I'm sorry you aren't going to give up IF for lent. Because now you might have to give up something you actually like, instead. xx

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry.

MK said...

BT sucks doesn't it? Had the same thing happen in December and January. 2 lines then 1 line and sort of a second line and then just 1 line and a nasty period. I'm so sorry.

Caro said...

So sorry

Me said...

I don't know. I'm so sorry.

Kami said...

Oh, B, I don't know. It seems it should be so easy for you with Maya happening so easily and just the translocation to get around. I wish I had some answers for you. I'm sorry.

loribeth said...

I'm sorry, B. :(

lis said...

i hope you find an answer soon...im so sorry for your loss it must be so hard for you
xoxo

Pamela said...

damn! why do bodies have to be so f#$king mysterious with their answers...wish I had something useful to say here.

Lavender Luz said...

Hugging you across the globe.

XO

luna said...

oh barb, my heart is aching for you. so so sorry. sending you love from across the pacific.

K said...

So so sorry :(

LFCA

Phoebe said...

This is so not fair. I'm heartbroken for you. I wish I could give you a big hug in person.

theclam said...

I am so sorry honey, I know how hard that must be, I also had a chemical pregnancy last year and it sucks.

Thinking of you.

xxx

(LFCA)

Kath said...

Oh, B, I'm so sorry. So very sorry.

wifey said...

So sorry to read this :( My thoughts are with you.

nh said...

I'm sorry

cowgirltn said...

I'm sorry

Sue said...

Here from LFCA. I'm so sorry.

Michele said...

Oh Barb... I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. This is so freaking unfair!!!

jrs said...

I'm so sorry. what a bummer

Heidi said...

I'm so sorry.

Elaine VanDRiver said...

my thoughts are with you.

Misfits said...

I'm sorry. You've been through a lot. My thoughts are with you.

Lisa DG said...

Shit...I am so, so sorry.

WiseGuy said...

Dear B, I am so sorry...

Fran said...

I am so so sorry....there are no words so I'm giving you a virtual hug. Fran

(LFCA)

Anonymous said...

just found your blog today and read your news. :( i don't know you but i feel for you, i cried a bit for you and said a prayer that somehow, someway things will turn around.

sincerely,
still greiving former IVFer

Panamahat said...

Checking in and checking up on you. Speak to us B, even if it is all misery. Tell us SOMETHING. ANYTHING. I am hoping you are managing ok. xx

Jericho said...

I know its been a little while, but I'm still sorry. *hug*

Berni said...

Where have you gone?? Thinking of you here in the UK......(((HUGS)))

Kami said...

You are so kind to leave your comment on my blog. I was complaining about not having the perfect birth . . . so trivial in comparison to where you are at.

I think of you often and always hope I will be surprised by a new post that you are well on your way with a healthy pregnancy.

Michele said...

Thinking of you and hoping you are okay... as ok as can be...

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